It is amazing how close of bonds you form with your pet.  Today we had to put our cat Kitty-bear to sleep.  He was truely the best cat ever.  forget about the ice cream, he was always there for me.  He was fine until about 2 months ago.  He started losing weight and we credited to his age (about 12) and we changed his food.  He started eating a little more and was a little more playful.  While his weight dropped you could see him breathing hard, and we credited that to the weight loss making it visible. 

 Yesterday his breathing was worse and we took him to the vet.  They diagnosed him with cardiomyopothy.  They gave him some stuff to clear up his lungs which were filled with fluid.  I had hoped that the drugs would give him some releif.  This morning we woke up and he was not on the bed, or under the bed where he usually is in the mornings.  He was upstairs and breathing very quick, very short breaths with his mouth open and reaching with his head with each breath as if to get a little more air.  We took him to the emergency animal clinic and they gave us 3 options.  Pay nearly $800 and his chances were slim and even if he made it through the night his days were still numbered because they cannot fix the heart condition, take him home and let him suffer until he died, or put him to sleep.  I didnt really seem like much of a chance.  We had to let him go so he would not suffer.  It must be terrible not being able to breath.

My saddness did not send me to ben & jerrys and i am thankful for that.  Perhaps this isnt quite the right place for me to talk about it, but it is about our highs and our lows and those are usually the emotions that break my concentration and send me to the snack aisle. 

 He really was a great cat, even non cat people liked him.  He had the best personality.  Since I dont have children, he was my baby.  He was the first animal that my hubby and i got after we got married.  He really will be missed!  Thanks for letting me get it out!