My anxiety is building as the day goes on.  I have put myself into a frenzy, just thinking about tomorrows elimination.  I figured out the numbers, and I dont like where i stand.  It can go either way, and  I am so nervous about losing Gil as a trainer, because he is great, and really takes my limitations into consideration.  I am nervous about losing because i need this so much.  Having this accountabilty has really kept me in line and helped me make those healthy choices that I have been making.  Not to mention I have become attached to the my team and all of the contestants and i dont want to lose that. 

I know we dont want to think about it, but i cannot help it.  I wanted to share my thoughts with you guys, so if you are feeling that way, you are not alone, and perhaps I am seeking validation that i an not alone. 

We have to live with our decisions that we have made over the past few weeks.  Did we give it all we could?  Could we have given even just a little more effort?  Been a little more dilligent in our food choices?  Worked out one more time?  These of course are rhetorical questions, but for me i am really thinking I could have done more, better, stronger.